infinite whispers

Sometimes I just sit somewhere and suddenly I feel like I am glued to that exact spot.

Everything in me starts to scream. I feel like I need to get out, to go for a walk just to run away.

My lungs demand a breath of fresh air, air that is not caged by walls but endlessly wide.

I feel like this uncontainable need to move is going to rip me apart any second.

And yet

all I do is sit on that exact spot

and wait for that silent scream to die down,

until it remains nothing more than an infinite whisper.

poetry, written thoughts

Tell me something I don’t know

Tell me something I don’t know.

Tell me that love feels like summer rain kissing soft skin

Tell me that kissing feels like touching someones bare soul

Tell me how a soul can be bare when its always carried within

Tell me where is the ocean that is the origin of my tears

Tell me why does shedding water out of closed eyes make heavy hearts easier to bear

Tell me how can ones heart be heavier now than before when it never changes its anatomy

Tell me what makes lies so easy to believe and what lies beyond the horizon of broken dreams

Tell me what makes the moon shine though he has no brightness of its own

Tell me what moves the clouds across the sky and what makes us think the sky is the limit when we know it is endlessly high

Tell me something I don’t know.

Just tell me.

poetry, written thoughts

Come back to me

Where are you? Are you gone for good?

I can’t seem to find you in those empty eyes.

I seek for you in them. I seek for you in every word you say, every thought you share.

But I can not seem to find you.

Where are you? Who is this new person I am talking to?

Where are you?

The you I once knew, the you I once loved, the you I lost my heart to.

I can not find it anymore. You hid it well behind those bars of fear.

I wish you would come back to me. I wish you would help me see that you are still there,


inside that coffin of your soul.

Don’t bury yourself.

Come back to me – breath again

I am still here – live again.

I am still waiting – love again.

I am still in love with you.

I beg you.

Come back to me.



How far is far enough

He told her to go, to stay away, to leave him alone.

So she did. Haunted by this mystery she could not solve:

How far was far enough?

Where did he want her to go, where did he want her to stay.

Because as far as she could tell there were worlds between them, galaxies even, but her heart was still with him, her thoughts still chasing after him and her mind still full of those old pictures, the memory of his touch and the sound of his laugh.

By time she came to grasp the outline of what was the inevitable truth:

In her case, there was no far enough. No distance wide enough that could ever stop her from seeing him in strangers walking by, hearing him in the songs that play on the radio and feeling his touch in the winds soft kiss on her cheek.

For love does not stay within borders. It has the abilty to cross every boundary, overcome every distance and ignore every limitation.

Its what makes it so beautiful but also what makes it so painful.

poetry, texts, written thoughts

Everyone craves company

No one wants to be alone.

No one wants to spend an eternity simply accompanied by oneself.

Everyone craves company.

We desire alliances with others.

It’s our nature.

poetry, texts, written thoughts

brave enough to feel

Society has a name for everything.

Dictionary upon dictionary full of terms defining other terms explaining what exactly something is or means.
There is a never ending craving for definitions and regulations, for statistics and rules for how something is supposed to be or what a certain word has to mean.

And through this, society triggers a loss of horrific extent: We lose the things that can’t be defined. If what can’t be told in words is not of worth then society has no worth at all.

An acceptance has to start growing that there are things between heaven and earth, feelings, moments, emotions – that can not be simply defined, that can not be put into words and that can not be found in a dictionary.

Some things simply are what they are, you have to experience them yourself in order to understand what they truly mean.

The most important things in life are not defined in dictionarys, they grow their meaning and their significance in the hearts of those who are brave enough to close the books – and feel.


There is no right way to not love somebody back.